WAITING

a creak of a door,
his heart leaps
he rushes to Open,
Ready to embrace
But the wind howls with mirth at him
Your Waiting is vain, it teased

A ring of a phone,
He moves to pick it up
“ello,
expecting to hear the voice,
he so craved
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A wrong number.

Deep in his heart he knows,
he is not going to see her again,
not going to hear,
that laughter,
fresh from her lips

but till now,
he has clung to a strand of hope
like we all do,
however hopeless the hope is

the vision blurred,
with those fresh tears,
he looks around
the house ,
that was once alive

now,
all the vitality
has drained out of it
the emtyness,
reeks of
desolation

you can’t blame an old father,
to dip into,
Reminiscences

EVADED

Lost,
I’d been,
relishing dreams,
someone dragged me out,
desperately, it seems

pointless wanderings,
through fate’s deception

never directed the right way,
I seized to exist
searching for the track,
lost somewhere,
too late for me to go on

watching myself sinking deeper,
a year slipped by,
I’m still submersed,
in the lake of,
my constructed wishes

ah, life,
allow me to gulp,
the bowl of reality,
allow me to drink the Elixir
only then,
the time will have
forgiven my fate,
forgiven,
the futility of me

A CHILD'S FATE

ghostly,
uncanny,
he crawled,
toward,
the shelter he craved

another day passed,
he lay,
holding the scrap,
a day’s pay

victorious,
he earned a night’s sleep,
earned a look from the stars,
their peaceful glare

he knew not,
where his doom lay,
but he valued his fate,
valued,
but didn’t heed

yet,
he Struggled,
to survive,
snuggled close,
to the warmth of solitude

he lay,
an empty soul,
devoid of his sanity,
by the passing crowd
he lay there,
unobserved,
a mere,
ghost

THE REMEMBRANCE

The jagged shards,
of my broken thoughts,
remain
cutting,
agonizing
memories,
they don’t fade,
the images,
clogging,
my peripheral vision
screaming to come forth,
shading,
my present,
as they did in the past

I let them
I let them sting the eyes,
I let them stab me
I let them mock,
fate

It’ll end,
it’ll clear
always does,
its near

Oh,
let me move ahead,
let me feel,
hope
tell me I can,
answer me,
is it in vain?

THE ENDURANCE

Hatred,
Feeding,
Burning me,
Keeping me alive
Me,
Being torn apart,
soul Maimed,
brain butchered,
hours of agony
now,
ecstasy
I’m light,
Floating,
Feeling,
no,
Watching my self,
being mutilated
the end is far,
yet,
wishing,
for it to come to me
I’ve seen enough,
Suffered enough,
let me adore,
let me kiss,
death
oh,
a painful bliss

WORTHLESS ME

murmurs,
washing over me,
no,
sinking in
the pain,
pinching,
pricking,
I pretend not to heed,
But,
I cringe
I wish,
I would let it go
But the mask,
Remains,
on my burned face
tears,
they don’t flow
the eyes,
burning,
Look away
Oh,
Let me remove,
the protecting disguise
I turn away,
The Scrutiny,
Piercing the hollow me
Me,
A disgrace
Oh,
Wishing,
Would let it go,
But the hate,
Killing me

another attempt

scared,
I stand there,
Not sure
Hesitating,
Whether to move
Or accept the loss
I shift away from the wall,
Ready to blend,
But I’m shoved away
I ponder,
Whether to retrieve,
to the spot of comfort,
Or to struggle on.
Along the wall,
I crawl forward
Not sure,,
Whether I’ll be welcome or not
I draw courage,
Wall, a comfort
I move,
Ready to face
But hands,
Unfamiliar,
Thrust me back,
To the mark where I belonged
And I,
I don’t protest,
I give in
I stand there,
Wanting an escape,
Thinking of a way
and I hear the familiar sound,
knew what it meant.
I turn back,
Swept away,
Finally, retrieve
I accept the defeat
There is always another day,
I mused
But I know,
I couldn't do it
I know,
It is,
A hopeless attempt