THE REMEMBRANCE

The jagged shards,
of my broken thoughts,
remain
cutting,
agonizing
memories,
they don’t fade,
the images,
clogging,
my peripheral vision
screaming to come forth,
shading,
my present,
as they did in the past

I let them
I let them sting the eyes,
I let them stab me
I let them mock,
fate

It’ll end,
it’ll clear
always does,
its near

Oh,
let me move ahead,
let me feel,
hope
tell me I can,
answer me,
is it in vain?

THE ENDURANCE

Hatred,
Feeding,
Burning me,
Keeping me alive
Me,
Being torn apart,
soul Maimed,
brain butchered,
hours of agony
now,
ecstasy
I’m light,
Floating,
Feeling,
no,
Watching my self,
being mutilated
the end is far,
yet,
wishing,
for it to come to me
I’ve seen enough,
Suffered enough,
let me adore,
let me kiss,
death
oh,
a painful bliss

WORTHLESS ME

murmurs,
washing over me,
no,
sinking in
the pain,
pinching,
pricking,
I pretend not to heed,
But,
I cringe
I wish,
I would let it go
But the mask,
Remains,
on my burned face
tears,
they don’t flow
the eyes,
burning,
Look away
Oh,
Let me remove,
the protecting disguise
I turn away,
The Scrutiny,
Piercing the hollow me
Me,
A disgrace
Oh,
Wishing,
Would let it go,
But the hate,
Killing me

another attempt

scared,
I stand there,
Not sure
Hesitating,
Whether to move
Or accept the loss
I shift away from the wall,
Ready to blend,
But I’m shoved away
I ponder,
Whether to retrieve,
to the spot of comfort,
Or to struggle on.
Along the wall,
I crawl forward
Not sure,,
Whether I’ll be welcome or not
I draw courage,
Wall, a comfort
I move,
Ready to face
But hands,
Unfamiliar,
Thrust me back,
To the mark where I belonged
And I,
I don’t protest,
I give in
I stand there,
Wanting an escape,
Thinking of a way
and I hear the familiar sound,
knew what it meant.
I turn back,
Swept away,
Finally, retrieve
I accept the defeat
There is always another day,
I mused
But I know,
I couldn't do it
I know,
It is,
A hopeless attempt